20 August 2011
It is just have been few days since mom left me. This is the most unpleasant feeling i ever had. Did I never lose someone dearly? Yes I do, My Father. But this time it happened so fast. And it really took away something from me, and I am still searching for it.
To travel to a far away from home is not a good feeling for me, but I guess God really want me to go to other country, in Keningau my home town there was many memories and some it starting to sallow me slowly. I have to regain my strength have to held strong to what lies ahead.
I somehow felt very strong that, this time trip is telling me something about my future, I am close to find it out, but it seem it will take years to it be materialize.
Traveling alone…with many memories and pains in me...is really testing my own limit of acceptance of the reality and somehow my trust to God is growing deeper. Right now He is my only consolation.
